Overstimulated & Desensitized

I can’t believe it has been over a month since I have posted on here… I actually haven’t even posted on Facebook in a while. I have so much to say… But I don’t know how to respond… Or don’t have the energy to respond so I just don’t post anything at all… For fear … [Read more…]

My 3rd Child

So I have had two beautiful little girls…  I remember the beginning of the first pregnancy and that waiting a whole 40 weeks was an ETERNITY… I actually at one point wondered if I had it in me to wait that long… But I did(because you don’t really have another option anyway) and what I … [Read more…]

One week from today…

So here I sit at Panera a few minutes away from the hospital waiting for my pre-op in 30 minutes. I have finally really made it this far… I have so many emotions over this past year…  I am angry that I ever got cancer… But thankful for all of the amazing people and experiences … [Read more…]

The Stigma of Cancer…

So… you had cancer… you went through chemo… surgery…. maybe radiation and goodness knows what else. Now everyone you know is super, amazingly over protective and you love them for it… but, you feel trapped… in your own body.  Doctors, family, friends… everyone says, “don’t overdo it… you need to rest… etc.”… but, you feel … [Read more…]

First Descents Day 2

So here I sit watching this river flow thinking how two days ago I was scared. I was scared of the rapids, the fast moving water, rocks, of my poor swimming skills, and mainly of just not being coordinated enough to keep a kayak top side up. Today though… I am not afraid. Yesterday we … [Read more…]

First Descents Day 1

Currently, I am on a retreat with other cancer patients in Merlin, OR.  The trip is put on through a group called First Descents and helps cancer patients get out and live life post cancer treatment.  Truly LIVE life… in a way I think I took for granted before my diagnosis last December 2016.  They … [Read more…]