3 days

Today I am nervous. Today I have my pre-op. I feel like I have so many preparations to get done. Prep my hospital bag, do 2 more Valentine’s for Delainey’s class… Because they got 2 new students, visit with friends and family. Think about the what if.  I certainly hope everything turns out ok on … [Read more…]

I Want It

Anyone who knows anything about me knows I am a huge Blue October fan.  I started listening to them in 2006… first with Into the Ocean and Hate Me.  Later I progressed into listening to their older music and eventually became one of those who impatiently waits for the release of their next album or when they will … [Read more…]

Positively Positive

7 days.  One week.  So soon but, yet somehow an eternity.  I can’t wrap my mind around it all.  This whole cancer thing becomes totally real one week from this morning.  Right now, it is still kind of just something that people are telling me.  While the battle within me has begun with a vengeance, … [Read more…]

A Little Help From My Friends

So something funny happened yesterday.  I was scared.  I was thinking about my upcoming surgery and how I would handle it so, I started Googling other people who had similar surgeries.  I found several posts in several forums and read people’s outcomes and they all seemed positive but, it still wasn’t what I needed.  I … [Read more…]

Processing…

So, I have been thinking a lot lately about my actual surgery.  I have never had an actual, real surgery where I was out.  I mean, I had 2 c-sections but, I was awake for them.  I was aware of what was going on.  I also had my wisdom teeth out but, that was my … [Read more…]

My Body. My Choice.

If you have read Diagnosed at 36, you know the emotional state I was in when I met with my cancer team at Dorothy Schneider Cancer Center on the Monday after my diagnosis.  So much was going through my head….I was at a cancer center… Chemo!… Radiation!… I never thought this would be me.  It was … [Read more…]

Choices. Choices. Choices.

Well, this post isn’t about my surgery choice yet… as I somehow felt this post was something I needed to say first and completely unrelated.  On January 11th, Myranda(my youngest) and I were sitting in a little restaurant next to a train station.  I watched a man dressed in grey jogging pants and a heavy … [Read more…]